Today

I'll just let my mind wander today.

Allow it to feed.. off of everything else around me. The car, that drove too close. The tree that is just about dead, but.. continues to hang there. The pattern in the sky.. from the plane. It looks like, part of a spine. And of course, the sun.

Shining down on me. It did, again. Yes, today.. it did again. Cutting right through the trees like a hot knife in butter. It found me.

At that moment, when I paused and looked up..
Nothing else mattered.

The tough thing to see..
Is..
There's beauty..
In simplicity.

You said..?

I figure it to be like this..

I don't know what's going on, anymore. I can't waste my time with it. I'll gladly help you. If I move forward, I won't leave you behind. Not a chance. But, I can't wait around for you..

The more I try to reach to you, the farther.. you seem to become.

Those words were said to me, in a dream.
It's amazing..
I actually woke up, with a tear on my cheek.

I need more dreams like this..
But, I need you to say more things to me..
Please.

Words.

Words.

We all use them daily. Freely. Normally without hesitation. I can't decipher them anymore. It's hard for me to know, what is what. Maybe I looked at those words, and I froze because.. I was in shock. Maybe, I still am. Sometimes, we take things.. to serious. And, not take things as serious.. when we should? Even at this moment, I don't know which ones I should use. Making it near impossible, to coherently complete this. I heard some words, so beautiful.. that I thought true. But, they were just a short lived dance with delusion. The euphoria passed, as quick as I regained my heartbeat. That pause, brought on a rapid shift in my mind. In that moment.. that instance. I felt..

Alive.

But alas..
They were.. just words.

It's been a while..

Everything has just managed to flow all in to one..
One, constant stream of the same routine. I lack those fleeting moments of impulse.
Each step I take, I know where it's leading me. I wish to break this routine.
I know at the end of it, there is something waiting for me.. But, don't I deserve something more? Once.. in a while?
All I am left with, is.. just gazing. Looking at the things I have done before. With nothing new to show for myself.. or show myself.
I realize this before I close my eyes for the final time awaiting rest. And have come to accept it when I am able to comprehend what is going on around me, when I awake.

But, can't I just for one moment..
A fleeting moment..

Have more?
One.. last time?