Speak, Spoken.

After some long consideration, and staring at my last post.. I thought.
And this is what I came up with..

I've known a lot of people. Well, I still do. But, I have seen a lot of "Loved Ones" leave. Some were unexpected, and some.. were just unexpected to others. I still wonder.. was everything said? Did they feel as though they had tied up every loose end? I would imagine there was a mess left unsaid..

I suppose I am making this in the hopes.. if anything was to happen I would have some form of documentation of my "Thoughts." I can honestly say, that everyone I have met.. I am glad I did. No matter if there was some "Bad outcome" in whatever form of the relationship. ( Whatever it may have been. ) I will make this more and more broad, as it goes on. First, I say thank you. To anyone and everyone who has had some form of interaction with me. Thank you, for a moment of your time. Thank you, for even listening to nothing that I may have said. Because maybe what wasn't said was meant to be left unsaid. But not misunderstood. I value the people I have met, and taken in. Taken in close to me, that is. Some people say keep your friends close, and your enemies closer. But, why bother. I'd much rather keep people that should be close to me, Close. From simple conversations, and interactions.. people have shown me different views on things that I was obviously too blind to see. Allowed me to comprehend another way to "Feel" something, "View" something. Forced me to realize things, the hard way. Shoved me down to the ground. Watched me fall, and picked my ass back up. Abandoned me, stayed by my side. Became indifferent. And continued to be true to who they were/are.. and others. I suppose I could rant on, and just flood out more shit. But, I'll close with..

"The hardest thing I have ever accomplished, was that first word.. with you."

Again, this is vague. But, if you know me.. then you know I am referring to you. And now.. "Some things are NOT.. left unsaid."

Thank you.

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"I guess.. the only thing I want to believe is that when I die I will meet everyone I love/d and miss.. in the end."

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At this moment,

I realized.

It's time for a change.
This very second, I surrender.