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I now know, that I basically know.. nothing.

Time

My days off just seem to coast on by, and the weekend is gone.
The moments I spent "regaining what sanity I have" seems too short for my liking. I suppose, I can look forward to the prospect of time off.

But, it's too far away.. it seems. Weeks are a long time when you measure them in hours.

So much to do..
So.. much..
So little time.

Beauty

If I could show you all, what I see..
Give you a taste of what I visualize..

You'd understand.
Not even tangible, yet at first glance..
It pours into you.
What a feeling..

No matter how hard..

No matter how hard I try..
I never succeed.
I continue to hurt..
For some one else.

God, it hurts..

I'm a killer..

Boy you can't run..
You can't hide from me..
I'm a killer..

Killing for fun..

It's all so small..

Tonight, I will lay down comfortably.
You may not even have a home.
Tonight, I had a few moments to think of things that I cherished.
Everything was ripped away from you, in an instant.
Tonight, I was irritated knowing I had a "Busy Day" ahead of me in the morning.
You don't even know if you will make it until the morning.
Tonight, I didn't return that phone call because I was tired. It could wait, until tomorrow.
You never had the chance to say goodbye.
Tonight, my food wasn't "to my liking" so.. I threw it out.
You're starving.
Tonight, I realized.. you are stronger and wealthier than I.
You're tired and crying, but fighting. Unsure if you'll make it to tomorrow, and even if you do.. It could end all over again.

I'm weeping inside, for you.
Be strong, hold on..
If you can..

Weary

Just.. plain..
Tired.

Inside..
And out.

Still, I must shine..
Can you see me?