Even on a simple walk, I look at what surrounds me. I look at "Areas" left untouched, and I become drawn into them. They seem to "Scream at me." You could walk into there in the morning, noon, or night and to you it would be nothing. But, to me.. it is another "Surface." We've been deemed "Egomaniacs" by the people who harbor anger towards us. But, who really has the ego? The one who just pours his or her heart out onto that one fleeting moment, or the one who looks at the "Art" of someone and says "It's a crime." I suppose that "Cat and Mouse" game is necessary for one side more then another. But, I have accepted the fact that I am nothing more then what I allowed my self to pour out on a simple piece of concrete or brick.. or what have you. My ego needs no "Tendering." I appreciate what I am, and have become. I am that person you see during the day, smiling and helping you attend to your "Normal" life. But by the night, I am what you would call a "Deviant" or.. a "Vandal." I am what you embody as something of disgust, yet you still can't help but stop and stare. They say "A Criminal returns to the scene of the crime." Yes, we do... as we have been titled. I go back to see what I felt, then. What I carried with me, to that place to pour out. I view what I have done, also to keep me "Human." I'll never know your angst, or why you hate me. All of your feelings, I leave in my shadows. Maybe someday you will appreciate my "Beauty" or the.. "Purity" of what I do. Rather then condemn me, and take everything that means something to me.. away. We may talk, on a normal day. You could see my face, on a normal day. But, when night falls.. I am that shadow that you have. I am that person that when you drive by, you look briefly.. and discard. I am all of those things that you don't know how to place.
But, I know how to place what I feel.. and what I need at that moment.
And it comes in simple letters.
So, understand me.. and don't fear what you don't know.
We both see the world for what it is.. Beautiful.
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Beauty... yeah... Maybe that's just it!
ReplyDeleteMaybe, however the outcome of your work looks, tastes or feels like to others... maybe it's beauty simply because it's created in a moment of passion- soul pouring...
Heh... you're right.
Maybe, even if it's ugliness and disorder for some people.. It's nothing but a piece of art created on a possible canvas. Maybe- although some might find it useless or bothersome (I assume those who have to wash it off feels that way sometimes) - it's just... human art? Woah! I never saw it that way. WOOT.