Everything has just managed to flow all in to one..
One, constant stream of the same routine. I lack those fleeting moments of impulse.
Each step I take, I know where it's leading me. I wish to break this routine.
I know at the end of it, there is something waiting for me.. But, don't I deserve something more? Once.. in a while?
All I am left with, is.. just gazing. Looking at the things I have done before. With nothing new to show for myself.. or show myself.
I realize this before I close my eyes for the final time awaiting rest. And have come to accept it when I am able to comprehend what is going on around me, when I awake.
But, can't I just for one moment..
A fleeting moment..
Have more?
One.. last time?
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I hear ya
ReplyDeleteSometimes I get from point A to point B not conciously knowing how i got to point B.
ReplyDeleteJust like hoping that a wonderful moment wont ever stop, it does stop. Same goes for that routine..it'll be broken someday by something wonderful.
Routines are a shame. They blurr our vision, cloud our minds and prevents us from breathing in the moment that tries its hardest to fill us with wonder and beauty.
ReplyDeleteLike Inksy said, it'll pass, and you WILL, if you allow it, be floating along with happiness and amazement again.
In the meantime. Remember the story about the pianist who played the most wonderful songs before he even knew anyone was listening;
"Whenever we feel that no one is paying attention to what we are doing, let us think of that pianist. He was talking to God through his work, and nothing else mattered."
You might not be talking to God, but your actions have an impact. Like someone I know said; "It'll pay off in the end, won't it?"