What's on the menu?

I'll admit it..
I was excited.. a little nervous, for once I was early..
Or was she late? Either way.. killed time in the cold.. some pacing.
Then as quick as a shot, a thought came quick.. What.. are you doing.. What is this?
Too many thoughts came flooding in, hard to sift through them all. Seemed like seconds, a minute most. But next thing I know.. My name, I heard it. Now, I'll blame the cold for not moving fast. It was rather cold out today, so that's not a lie. It was almost as if, for that one second things.. just.. Stopped.
Dead stopped, Freeze.
"Gather yourself man, what are you doing.."
It would be safe to assume we all have a comfort thing.. that we do when nervous. All depending on the situation..
For me.. I applied a smirk, masking all this other unnecessary trivial baggage.
I never paid so much attention to someone before, yet... stared right through them..
Don't misunderstand me.. I looked in front of me, and I was made to feel like a kid..
So unsure, not wanting to slip up. Palms sweating, realizing I had managed to get an ice coffee.. when I hadn't bought one.
Gradually I felt my mind slipping, all that was being expressed was.. just a mess. I began to lose myself in the thoughts of, I should leave..
I felt in a sense as if I was a bad person, for having some one in front of me how clearly had an interest...
And I had to.. Struggle.. To keep interested?
But, I was.. interested.
Now, it gets complex.
I didn't want to leave, but I had to go. I knew from just being there, this was a good person...
Just not for me.

Let's step back.
Now she had me with her smile, dressed so proper.. Throwing in a rhyme now..
"Princess and a Pauper.."
We talked for some time. Most of the time I analyzed my thoughts..
Continued with a smile, and listened.. But, I can't help wonder... Did she know..
Was I rude?
They say having common interests are a plus. In this case, they weren't there. I was kindly reminded.. that my coffee was still untouched. So.. observant.
I remember the scent.. What was it.. I'd really like to know..
Slowly I realized, I had no idea what I wanted..
Not just today, but twenty minutes from now. Maybe ten seconds from now, or even.. before I die. It'll come to me at some point, it should at least...
I am.. just..
Completely unsure..
But there is one thing I know for sure...

I never even touched... That damn coffee..