Begin again

Here I am again, though something is not the same. It's almost as though I have been walking with my eyes closed, or someone had the lights off. Things, people.. all different to me. But, it's beautiful to me at the moment. Though an absence rather short, it seemed very long. As though time just stopped upon my departure, but that was not the case. Everything around me, outside.. changed. I changed with it. The sun when once it seemed was dim and not present, now seems to shine down on me. Bathing me in it's soothing warm glow. Even the rain seems just ever so powerful to me. Like I have been out of touch for sometime, but that is the beauty of all of it. I lost myself during the build up, even the process. I thought what I knew, was really what it was. But it was not. And I was not, and that is where I stand now. Embracing this "Change" and staring it all in the face, I extend my arms and close my eyes. Things flash inside my mind, various colors and places.. some of which I have never seen. People, looking at me with confusion.. clips.. of everywhere and everything. It's all so overwhelming really, but.. I like it. I have had nothing but calm thoughts, accompanied by this smile.. that just will not leave me. Not, that I would want it to per say.. But, it just feels new. This new feeling I have, I just want to share. I need to, because I want people to feel the way I do. I know that some people, words just can't reach. However, maybe even if we can't reach them by words we can merely understand the people around us that we are "forced" to "exist" with. Perhaps, they will see my smile or.. be able to feel my presence and aura? Take the good from it and use it to better themselves? Maybe this is all just the thought of someone who wants so much more from people and the world then it is ready to deliver, or prepared to expend?

Be that as it may, the things that are behind me.. stay behind me. Hidden in my shadow, out of sight in the cover of that shadow. "Gone" maybe.. but not forgotten.

So, if I look to you with that smile and calm look... and I extend my hand to you.
What will you do? Will you hesitate or flinch, or will you look deep inside my eyes?
Decide.