I'm just going to sit here, and soak it all in. You may not know I am looking, but I can't help it... I can't look away. Even though what you are doing is so simple.. It's beautiful to me. I'm taking it all in, you see. I can't get enough right now. I'm supposed to be okay, but I'm not. That doesn't matter though, it's about you. I know it's not really that long, but I am not accustomed to it. It is something I know not how to approach. Even now as I make this, my fingers twitch. I'll blame it on the coffee, much easier.. No? Composure. I must hold on to it, so it won't be hard for you. As it is now, just a matter of time and it begins.. and with that same matter of time it will end. The gap will be hard, for both.. I know. Probably more for me then you would comprehend at the moment. But that's the beauty in innocence. You're limited to other destructive thoughts, and ideas. So, when you smile.. it is a genuine smile.. and when you cry.. the tears are pure. I'm sorry I have to wear this smile knowing it's not true. But, I do it.. only to make things easier for you.
Time waits for no one, so don't get caught standing still.
But for now.. I'll just sit here..
And look at you.
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Hey Gabe, you do realize that from the moment you decided to put on a smile defying whatever you feel inside, for her sake, that same smile instantly became true? For her it is, right?
ReplyDeleteSomeone once told me; "Save your apologies for when they're needed." Remember?
Don't apologize for "faking" a smile. It's real for her; so in a way, you can't call it fake at all.
You go DuckiePants! See you on the other side, neh? :)
Imagine how bright her smile will be, the day she understands, truly grasps, this story you've written, inspired by...her.
ReplyDeleteHey man. Look, i hope everything is going great. I want you to know we miss you.. and.. SHE misses you too, but remember always keep that smile on, because as much as you think its fake it never is. I know your happy to have her.. thats all that matters. ^^
ReplyDeleteYour'e a good man. A GREAT person, and a wonderful friend. Keep it up homie G-Skillet.
Ill be waiting by the water fountain to take your lunch moneY!!
James sais: ---wants to be g0d
Gabe says: granted
James Says: WHOOO YEAH!
Gabe says: Oh.. no wait, sorry.. I lent the suit out to someone elce. :O
James says: Aweshiiiit, ima pp a cap.
i think everyone else already said what needed to be said
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